Freaking Out

Taylor and I at Disney on Ice!

Hello Everyone,

How are you today? I am freaking out... I don't want to go back to work... I don't want to feel the way i did when i worked there before for the six weeks. Bored. Tired. I don't want to feel like crap and i don't want to have less time with Taylor. I dont like that for half of the month i have to wake up at 5:30 am to and dont get home until 4:45 pm and then have to go to bed at 9:00 pm to be rested enough for the next day. And half of the month having to go to work at 3:30 pm and working until 3:13 am... Just to sleep until 2:00pm and go back into work right away afterwards... Where is my life outside of work? The weekend i guess.. if there is no overtime shift...

Its not that im ungrateful for having this great paying job... but look at what i have to sacrifice! I know so many people wanted the job that i have and i should be so thankful for it... but i feel so lonely and so bored while i work and then i feel so tired when i get home.....

21 Days until i go back to work... Less than a month. 3 Weeks. I am not ready to face an entire year of this. I feel panicked. Its silly... i know... I'm not going to war or something but i feel such anxiety over it...

Okay i am just going to relax... Yes that is what i am going to TRY and do....

I will tell you about my day.

I called my Grandma on my dads side and had a lovely conversation with her :) I always like talking to her because since she lives pretty far away i don't get to see her that often. Then i went to the mall and i spent my H&M gift card that i got for my birthday from my aunt, uncle and cousin, on some weird pants (that im not sure i want to keep yet! lol) and these pictures are the exact pants, from the H&M website... so you get the idea of how weird they are...and two button up shirts that are very basic but very nice.

The shirt I bought... White and Navy!

And i got Boots (our cat) a self-moving laser pointer and she loves it! Its so funny because she turns into spider-cat and defies gravity! lol...

Also i got Taylor and I these tupperware things that are meant for cereal and milk or yogurt and oats. They have a top and a bottom compartment and the bottom one goes in the freezer and the outside freezes and then you can keep milk or yogurt cold for the day if you don't have a fridge to use. It also comes with a nifty foldy spoon that lives in the lid of the top compartment! They are pretty useful and cool and mine is purple and Taylor's is green. Which is nice of me because green is my favorite colour!

I also got more Tupperware in general because it was on sale and Taylor keeps bringing the ones we have to work and losing them all! What a Silly Billy!!!

Have you guys heard the song "Merry Go Round," By Kacey Musgraves? Its really good! Its a country song so if you like country... definitely listen to it!

Also i dont believe i mentioned the events of Saturday and Sunday! So i will tell you now!

Saturday

Delcinea, Zach, Jon, Taylor and I went to "The Works" burger joint but Eliesha had to work so she couldn't make it for dinner. It was delicious as usual! I had a burger called "Crappy Tire," and it was a beef burger with this spicy red sauce on it and then a grilled pineapple slice and a lot of brie cheese, on a whole wheat bun! It was so bloody delicious! Too bad we kinda all promised not to get the same burger twice or i would get it next time! Also when i say spicy... i dont mean that spicy... because i dont like things that are too too spicy!

Anyway then after the works we met up with Eliesha and we went back to our place and had a few drinks and played cranium and it was so much fun!!! A really great night!

Sunday


Taylor and i got to mom and dad's around 11:00 am and we hung out and around 12:00 pm, My Aunts and Uncles arrived and we had lunch pretty much right away! Which was roast beef and potatoes and carrots, and homemade bread and pasta salad and it was delicious! Then i got to open presents! And i got a gift card to H&M and a gift card to Victoria Secret, and a beautiful scarf that Grandma made and a shirt and these beautiful plates and bowls that i am in love with! I will show you them too... one minute! Okay here they are! Aren't they beautiful? Because i think they are! Anyway after presents we had moms homemade chocolate cheesecake with oreo crumble crust and it was delish!
Then Aunt Connie, my cousin Caitlin, my Mum, Taylor (Not completely willingly) and Myself got in the van and headed to see Disney on Ice! Which you should all be jealous of because it was awesome! (I am a huge Disney fan)... Anyway it was a great day!

Tomorrow I have a doctors appointment and I am going to be hanging with my mummy, and maybe going to get more dishes for my set! Other then that i have nothing to say, so i love you all to pieces and so does Boots, (I know because she is staring at the screen right now) and if that is not love i dont know what is.

Okay GOODDAY and good riddance!

Just kidding!

Love Always

SmartyPants xo

Ireland is Extremely Far Away

 Hello Readers...

So the worst has happened. Well there are worst things... but the Ireland trip is cancelled.... Yep... I got called back to work... Today... I go and sign the contract on Friday morning.

I am pretty bummed, because i was really really looking forward to it!

I go back to work starting Feb. 19th, on afternoon shift.... Its good because i will have money, and i will be able to pay off my student loans... but i have to go back to the same area as i was in before and it is very lonely and boring and it makes the shift drag on and on :(

New plan now... save up money and go to Europe in a year or so... I just dont want life to get away from us and i dont want to end up going to school and getting a career, and getting married and having kids... and growing up without traveling... That would be sad!

Anyway i just wanted to write that because its obviously what is on my mind right now!

Thats all!

Love Always
SmartyPants xo

Ireland is Far Away

Hello my dears,

How are you today? I am well thank you... only a tad annoyed because i could get called back to work sooner than expected... and i know you are thinking... Isn't that a good thing? Well yes it is BUT it could mean putting our Ireland plans on hold! Sucks right?  I dont know what our plan is at this point... but I hope it is that we can go to Ireland from Feb. 17th to March 10th and then I can be called back to work right afterwards! It would be a total downer to go back to work right now. Our Ireland trip is indeed far away!

Anyway putting that aside...

Taylor and I both got our G class license! I got mine on Tuesday January 22nd and Taylor got his Thursday January 24th! We are very happy and relieved because we dont have to do anything else regarding licensing until we are eighty!

Hmm what else?

Oh yes... this weekend on Saturday, Taylor, Delcinea, Zach, Eliesha, Jon and I are hanging out and going to a restaurant called "The Works." It is extremely delicious and filling and the atmosphere and awesome! Here is the link to the website... ---->The Works<---- a="">

 So we are looking forward to that! Also on Sunday my mom is having a family birthday party for me at noonish and then in the afternoon my mom and Aunt Connie and my cousin Caitlin and I are going to Disney on Ice! Which i am also extremely excited about!!! Wouldnt you be? Because I AM!

Then next week guess what is coming up? MY BIRTHDAY! I will be 22! Crazy eh? I know! January 31st! I am mostly looking forward to it but sorta not because 22 seems so old and i feel so young. I guess 22 is young but it doesnt feel that way!

Also February 2nd i have a birthday party to look forward to at Delci's house and its a combo birthday because Zach and I are both January 31st people! So that should be a lot of fun too!

Today i cleaned the office in our house and its about time because we have lived here for almost 3 months now and it wasnt unpacked yet and there were ugly cardboard boxes everywhere... but not anymore! Thank gosh!

Also Valentines day is coming up!

Tonight i think i want to relax because of the busy week ahead... but i also kinda want to go to the movies with Taylor. I will have to see if i can convince him to go... he hasn't wanted to the movies lately... but maybe if i promise to watch the Hobbit he will take me to the movies...

I have never seen Lord of The Rings though so i might not understand the hobbit... Maybe that is what we could do tonight? Watch the trilogy!

Okay i think i have gone on enough for one day!

Talk tomorrow maybe!

Love Always

SmartyPants xo

Waiting For The News

Good morning everyone!

I am told today there will be a big announcement about the place I work at noon! The prime minister will be there and rumour has it that it's good news! Hopefully this means a lot I people are been hired back! But that means that Taylor and I will not be able to go to Ireland this February :( We will have to wait until I have worked longer and save money and whatnot! It's okay though because that just means a longer trip when we do decide to go! And that also means I can get my student loans paid off and so That is super good news too!

Anyway I love you All and will post later with what I hear!

See You When I'm Eighty

Hello dears!

I just wanted to let you know that I officially got my G licence today and I will not have to bother with it again until I am 80! Congratulations to moi! That is all as I am writing this on my phone and my phone is dead!

Love always!

Places To See

Good Afternoon Everyone!

I am currently researching must-see places in different parts of Ireland and i thought i would share my research!

I'll start with Dublin because that is where we are going to be landing. So here goes! (I will write a bit about what it is and why we want to go there... also this is mainly what i want to see as Taylor is at work so i am doing this on my own at the moment... But i'm sure he would really want to see these places too!)

Places We Want To See (Rough Draft)

Dublin

Trinity College and Library

Trinity College and Library was founded in 1592 (So its a beautiful old building) Its the home of over a million books and priceless manuscripts. 

We are interested in seeing this because it has been a part of Irish culture for a very long time and It is on many Ireland Travel sights as a must-see!

Guinness Storehouse

You cannot go to Dublin and not have some Guinness or visit the Guinness Storehouse! It is a part of the original brewery! And at the end of the tour you get a free pint at the Gravity-Bar. high above Dublin's rooftops! There is no way you could miss this and we are very excited to have Guinness right in Ireland! 

O'Connell Street and The General Post Office

  A Beautiful landmark of Dublin, in the center there are many statues and monuments and it is surrounded my beautiful large and impressive houses.  It is on the widest urban street in Europe!

The National Museum of Archaeology and History

A museum of prehistoric and medieval Ireland. It must be obvious why we want to see this!

The National Museum of Decorative Arts and History in Collins Barracks

St. Patrick's Cathedral

St. Patrick's Cathedral is Ireland's largest church! It was founded in 1191 by Archbishop Comynand it was renovated between 1844 and 1869. We of course want to see this because it is a beautiful piece of history and in general a gorgeous building and a must-see!

National Gallery

 An Art museum housing artwork by, Picasso, Caravaggio, and so many more. A must see if you love art. (which i do!)

Kilmainham Gaol

(I have no idea how to say this!) It is a jail though! Described as one of Europe's most notorious prisons. 

Dublin Castle

I have to do more research, but once again this is on the  list because it is a must- see by many of Irelands Travel Websites.

Phoenix Park

The world largest enclosed municipal park. There are apparently deer running free everywhere, and there is a zoo to visit, and many historical landmarks to explore.

Maybe i will leave it at that for now... I will be researching ALL day today so i will have more information later! Also i have decided to keep a journal while we are on the adventure and i will post it all on here!!! I got the idea from a blog Taylor showed me of this guy he knows and his girlfriend traveling in south America and blogging along the way. And that is exactly what i want to do to remember this adventure!!!!!

Ok that is all now!!!!!

Have a good day, be safe and stay happy!  

Love Always
SmartyPants xo

p.s. I also need a place for my adorable Kitty Cat to stay while we are away! And i think Delci will take care of her but i dont want to have to make her do that but i might have to!

Here is my cute kitty!!!!!

Planning

 Hello Readers,

Taylor and I are planning a trip to Ireland. Neither of us have been to Europe before and so this is a pretty big deal! We decided to go on this trip because we have wanted to travel for some time now and as you know i am currently laid off of work... so we thought... what a great opportunity!How often in life do you have a few months with nothing to do?

Taylor found a good deal on a round trip flight on this deal website he loves and we started making plans. Taylor still needs to hear back from his work to see if he can get time off because its kind of short notice and we will be gone for at least 3 weeks!

The flight lands in Dublin Ireland but we want to explore as much of Ireland as we can manage in the three weeks we are gone!

Then i started researching hostels and i contacted my best friends grandfather who lives in Belfast to see if we could visit him for a few days! He lives near Belfast.

My family is of Irish decent so i contacted my family members that i know have been to Ireland before and have met the family we have over there. My grandfathers sister and her husband! They said that they have contact information for many of the cousins and relatives we have in Ireland! That was so exciting to hear because I would get to spend time with members of my family that i have never had the chance to meet before! I'm not sure exactly where they live yet but i will be contacting them soon to find out!

Now we need to hit the ground running and apply for our passports (which we should have applied for before now) and as soon as Taylor's work lets him know if he has it off work, we need to book the flight!

We need to either buy a backpack or two that can hold a fair amount of stuff, or possibly ask my best friends grandfather if we can bring suit cases and keep them at his house while we travel around!

We also need to look into getting good running shoes that are good for a lot of walking!

We are so excited! I will update this all the time with our planning experience because not only do i think it will be nice for us to remember but helpful to others who want to take a similar trip!

Love Always

SmartyPants xo

Panicking

Good morning...
Woke up having a panic attack because I am scared I won't get my G license in time... I took the test once already and failed and now I only have until February 22nd to pass and I am worried.... Not to mention the fact that it is $75.00 each time and I don't currently have a job... I dreamt about it all night last night and woke up panicking because I dot want to go back to a g1 license...
Anyway that's all
Oh wait! Also HAPPY LAST DAY OF 2012!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love you guys

Blithering Idiot

 Hello lovelies!

I just wanted to say that I LOVE my family so much! My grandparents, parents and brothers took me out for breakfast this morning and it was so much fun! I spent almost the whole day with them!!! Also I want to mention Taylor because I am thinking about him right now and how amazing he is... Some people are not being very nice to me right now and he has my back 100%... I love that guy ;) So i bought him a Cherry Coke! lol I know... i am so thoughtful and generous! :P

Also I am thinking about the fact that I miss Sam (my dog)

Also...I am excited for New Years Eve as i am going to be spending it with Taylor, Delcinea, Zach, Eliesha, and Jon... and others who happen to be at the party! (Zach is Delcineas boyfriend and Jon is Eliesha's boyfriend!) It is also Jons birthday on New Years Eve so Happy Birthday!!!! :P I wanted to go to Toronto with Taylor for New Years Eve, as Taylor and I have done in the last 2 years... buts its a little expensive... and as i am jobless until further notice... we decided it would be better to stay closer to home! I will miss going to The Unicorn Pub though!!! My favorite pub in the world!!!

Also... i am tired of cleaning!!! This house just doesn't want to be clean... i can tell... Because every time i clean it still looks as messy as it did in the first place and its driving me bananas! I just want to hire a cleaning person for ONE DAY but that would be dumb because they wouldn't know where to put anything...

Okay so I am fully aware that no one really reads this, and thats okay with me... because I want to keep a record of my life... I want to be able to read my own story. So i will try and keep blogging... I'm doing good in the last few days anyway!

OK hopefully talk to you either later today or tomorrow... (THE LAST DAY OF 2012!!!)

Love Always SmartyPants xo

[I was bored yesterday :P But it turned out pretty cool! 4 different photos from different days in the last 3 months and edited on my iPhone :)]

What a Mess

It is ridiculously messy in this house but I have no desire to clean it... Why can't It just clean itself??? I have managed to do nothing with my day so far which annoys me like crazy... Well I played Sims for a bit so I did some things with a virtual persons life... Lame... I don't think I have mentioned this yet but Taylor and I have moved in together officially now and we have moved to a new city which is nice!!!! We really like our house!!! Things are going well!!! Also we got a cat and her name is boots!!!! I also got a new job though I am now laid off for a bit... Lots off free time but no money .... Anyway got to go love you!

Chaos

What do you do when your life becomes chaos? When everything around you is spinning out of control and the only thing you know if that things were fine yesterday? How to you get everyone to see your point of view when your voice is too quiet for anyone to hear? Why is it that every time you try to speak up, someone always tries to use what you say against you? Why do families become distant? Why do people you hardly know judge you? Can things ever be the same after people use hurtful words? How do you forgive? Why cant you forget? How does a family member become an acquaintance? How do friends become enemies? How does trust get broken? When will the chaos subside? When will the Chaos subside? When will the Chaos subside?


Love Always

SmartyPants xo

Happy Valentines Day!

Happy Valentines Day Everyone!
As you know Valentines day was yesterday and it was a lovely day :) I got to spend it with my boyfriend Taylor (our second valentines day as a couple!), and we had a fantastic time! We went for dinner and then we went to the movie "The Grey," which was really good until the end where it kinda just ended randomly and pointlessly... and also the movie is very depressing so if you want a movie that is going to put a smile on your face... this movie is not the one for you. Anyway, although i had a fantastic time, i still feel the need to bitch about a rude movie-goer, who decided that right in the middle of the movie is a fantastic time to have a cell phone conversation. First of all, i cant even stand it when people text during movies, as the light of cell phones and the vibration noise they make are very annoying and distracting from the movie that we paid good money for. So you can imagine how i feel about peoples cell phones ringing and then answering them, not to say "sorry i cant talk right now...." OHHH NO they had a full conversation until a few people, myself included, told that stupid girl to get off the phone. Anyway i was not impressed as you can tell... however... i did not let it ruin my night, i had a very enjoyable time with my sweetie :)

Love Always
SmartyPants xo

Drinking Cold Coffee

 Hello hello, and welcome to Wednesday :)
I am currently drinking some not-so-delicious cold coffee, and not enjoying it, but i still continue to drink it ... If i don't drink it i am nearly positive i will collapse with exhaustion!
I feel like no matter what i do, i have NO energy... Stupid midnight shift!
Anyway i am really just writing to say hello and tell you that valentines day is soon, and also to express my excitement that overtime shift this Saturday got cancelled so i dont work Friday night or Saturday night!!!! woohooo!
Also, one more thing, last night Delc, Zach, Taylor and I went to crabby joes and Taylor ordered wings, and then was up all night with food poisoning... so the moral that i am trying to show you is that you should make sure your chicken wings are cooked!!!!!!
We called head office of crabby joes today and they are going to get back to us later today, so hopefully that means some sort of reimbursement or something.
Okay will i better go, i have places to go, things to do, people to see... and whatnot :P

Love Always
SmartyPants xo

Twenty One

Good morning readers!
I have officially been twenty one for four days now! scary eh? I KNOW!!!!!
So i have decided i would write down a couple of goals for my twenty first year of my life..
so here it goes..
-read more, at least for a couple of minutes per day
-take better care of my hair... this means stop dying it so often, because it is very dry which is very depressing if you ask me!
-lose some weight the healthy way... eating healthier and by adding more physical activity to my life
-make some more friends, or reconnect with old friends
-try to find something positive in every person
-blog more
-keep a journal again

okay readers, those are some basic goals this year :) so anyway, i am currently looking for a pretty journal that i can write in... so hopefully i find one :) also i am buying a book called   "if i stay" which my mom told me about... and i just found out that chapters online sells used books! im so excited about this and im not sure if you guys knew this or not but theh cost like half the price of the new ones and each book listed has a description of the condition the book is in so you know exactly what you are buying!!!!
i must add this to my list of things i love!
which reminds me that i have not yet told you about my blackberry playbook. another thing that i love! i am currently writting this post on it right now actually...
anyway loves... i will talk to you later,as i am going to relax and read because i worked nights last night...

Love Always
SmartyPants xo

Five Days

Dear Readers,
Its 5 days until i turn 21!!!!!! I am so nervous, because i feel so old! I wish i was still 16 or something! But anyway...
it is currently 9:25pm and that means that i have to leave for work in an hour and a half, which sucks because im so frickin tired... and i slept like allll day today... which is very irritating!
However Taylor and i did get some errands done which satisfied my need to leave the house for something other then work!
And while we were out we saw this girl with 3 kids and omg she was so scary looking... i will try to show you... hold on! Here you go... i have edited this in paint :)

Okay, so its not nearly as scary in this picture as it was in the grocery store but i think you get the idea... also the dots are piercings... in case you didnt realize that.
Anyway now i am back at home, watching scrubs with Taylor and relaxing and well... typing to you... But honestly i dont have that much to say except that i am very excited for my birthday parties on Saturday (With friends) and Sunday (with family), and also for my actual birthday on Tuesday!!! (Jan 31st)
Also i am very much craving vintage shopping right now, specifically at Kensington Market in Toronto.
Ohhh ya, i wanted to mention that on the right hand side of my blog i have added a Things I Love section! I will change them up often, and if you click on the link, you will be brought to a website where you can learn more information, or purchase the thing :)

For a quick example, right now i have included The Frilly Lizard Clothing store as one of the things i LOVE... which is the store in London Ontario that i purchased my New years Eve dress!  Its such a great store, and its not a chain which is nice. Sometimes chains can really suck because you will end up having the same clothes as many other people! Also here is a picture of my new years dress :) There were so many nice things there, you can check them out on the website...

The Frilly Lizard Website

Also i have listed that i love, The Hunger Games Trilogy, which are fantastic books that i would recommend to anyone, of any age... If you are looking to purchase these books, i would suggest purchasing the box set, as you will need to read the second immediately after you finish the first! Also, its less money if you buy the box set then if you were to buy them each separately! I know for a fact Walmart has a good deal on this trilogy.




 Last but not least i mentioned the movie War Horse because i saw it with my family recently and it was AMAZING!!!!!!!! 



Anyway im going to skedaddle because i think i would like to nap before work!  You know i love you but ill say it anyway!

Love Always
SmartyPants xo

Gone Batty

Dearest Readers,
I am officially a night walker... No i dont mean a vampire....dummies! I actually have to walk around, at night... for work... ya know?
Its very exhausting, and I sorta feel like my whole life has been thrown off balance. For one thing, I have a different sleep schedule like every day because my body does not enjoy being awake all night, and so sometimes i fall asleep at 7, until like 2, or sometimes 10 until 5, or unfortunately, 7 to 7, which wastes my entire day, and I'm pretty sure you get the idea. It is the WORST feeling going to sleep when its dark, waking up when its dark and realizing that you wasted an entire day and you have to go to work in a few hours. I feel stir crazy, and cooped up and not very energetic at all. But yah know, I'm making money, and God knows i need it! So i really should stop complaining!!! A lot of people are unemployed, so i do feel rather fortunate in that aspect....
I did have a second job at Subway, but that was HORRIFIC! But i only worked there for like a month, and when i went to give my two weeks notice they just pretty much decided to show me the door. Not that I'm complaining because they are so rude there and treat us like we are retarded... Which we are for working for those idiotic losers who wrecked there own life by becoming subway managers... I guess the moral to this rant would be that NO ONE SHOULD EVER WORK AT SUBWAY! :)
Lets see, what else is going on in my life....
ohh yah and just fyi, never eat cold cuts from subway, they are nasty, and never eat breakfast sandwiches there... thats all im saying! lol
oh well, about 2 months ago, Taylor, Delci and i got gym memberships and for like a week we actually went to the gym, and then like many other gym-membership-signer-uppers, we stopped going, yet the gym was taking nice and large sums of money from our bank accounts bi-weekly anyway. The long of the long of this story is that yesterday Delci and I made a pact and Taylor and I made a pact that we would start going to the gym again, and got Delcis mom, (who is a personal trainer) to make Delci and i programs to reach the goals we wanted to reach! (mine is to lose inches around my torso, from my thighs and arms, to tone my tummy, and to make my boobs and butt nice and perky) ((NOT THAT THEY ARENT ALREADY PERKY!!!!!! LOLOL)) Anyhoo, Delci and I, after our overnights shift last night decided we would head to the gym, and that is exactly what we did. Let me tell you, working out after staying up all night working is no small feat! But i am happy that we did make it there! So hopefully we will not give up, and i will be happier with my body come bikini season... what is always everyone's hope though isnt it!
I am also trying to eat healthier but its hard with all the yummy things this world has to offer... not to mention, at work we are allowed to eat anything we want, as much as we want... So its rather difficult to pick the healthy things! I am proud of us though because for the past 2 days Delci and i have been eating veggies!
Anyway before i say anything else that you dont care about, i will go, hopefully talk to you tomorrow!!!

Love Always
SmartyPants xo

p.s. omg i totally forgot to wish you all a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! because it is 2012 and that is nuts, and also the world is probably going to explode this year!!! (but that is another topic for another day!) byebye

Missing: Voice

Dear Readers,
The words dont flow as easily as they used to. I dont feel i have as much to write about as i did when i was living in Toronto. Who knows, maybe i am just becoming more secretive with my life. Not as willing to share my life with the public...
Maybe life is to busy, maybe its to bland... who knows.
Anyway i should try to write more i know... Im SURE my life has something of interest in it.. i just have to find the words.
Have a lovely weekend!

ohhh yah, and please like me on facebook!
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Love Always
SmartyPants xo

Sammich

Hey readers, if there are any of you left... i just wanted to say hi because it has been a while. So heres whats new... I got a second job, just in time for my first job (a temp job) is having me go down to 3 shifts a week... so phew! And the best part is the new job is in the city i live in rather then being in my old town (30ish mins away)... so its nice to not have to go so far. And to be honest, im pretty much that is ALL that is new...
Christmas is coming folks, and i have barely started shopping yet... ughh... i do enjoy shopping but it feels like i have so little time to shop for everyone... my list of gifts keeps growing and growing and growing.
I am thinking of becoming a big sister... ( as in big brothers big sisters) because i desire to make a difference in the world (or at least in one life) and i feel like becoming a big sister could be just that way to do that... but its something i will have to put more thought into, as its a huge commitment, and i need to make sure that i have time in my life and that i can handle the responsibility... not sure if im ready yet...
anyway that is all
im sorry im not being interesting! have a lovely lovely day!

Love Always
SmartyPants xo

Off To The City Once Again..Oh Boy...

Hello readers!
Long long time no talk, i have missed you dearly... but you know, life is busy and whatnot.
Anyway! A lot has happened since i last posted, such as moving to London. I have moved in with Delci and Taylor lives with our friend Dan downstairs! We are having a ton of fun living on our own so far!
Tonight was Mexican Wednesday, and Dee and i enjoyed some very delicious tacos. The boys were suppose to join us but they ate before dinner so they didnt join us... in conclusion... they suck!
I have been working full time hours at a minimum wage job, still in my hometown. Therefore i am paying far to much in gas to drive back and forth... however, i really enjoy my job, my coworkers are very very nice and i like my boss and the shift always go by really quick. But it is seriously not worth driving back and forth to get paid $10.25 an hour. So that is why i have begun the process of applying to a factory in my old town, and that pays well and i have a quite good chance of getting the job, so hopefully i will be working there soon! THAT will be totally worth driving back and forth because it pays really really well!!
Im happy right now readers, im not in school, and im drowning in debt, but i am so very very happy. I feel like no one and nothing can bring me down!!!
Oh ya! and Delci and i got chinchillas! They are sooooo cute, and their names are Jacques and Pierre! The frenchest chinchillas ever, however, in case you were wondering, they are not ACTUALLY able to speak french lol!
Anyway i am going to go and play red dead redemption now, OR maybe i will be smart and go to bed! either way... night night loves! xoxoxox 

Love Always
SmartyPants xo

Dear 14 year old me...

Dear 14 year old me,
You are so lucky, you have a family that loves you so much! Don't take advantage of them, dont take them for granted... In the next 6 years you should try not to fight with them... its hard i know, but try a little harder... please?

Dear 14 year old me,
You just entered high school... its going to be some of the best years of your life... dont rush through it... DO YOUR HOMEWORK! you will regret it if you dont... your life will be so much easier if you have good grades in high school as a foundation.

Dear 14 year old me,
Spend so much time with friends, especially those goofballs you hang out with near the bus stop after school... they will be true, lifelong friends.

Dear 14 year old me,
You know that boy Taylor who you are crushing on so much, the one you want so badly it hurts? Dont worry, after 5 years of a loving friendship, he will tell you he loves you on Delcineas front porch... and as you have loved him all along, everything will fall into place. be patient.

Dear 14 year old me,
Go to prom with friends, dont go with a boy... you dont want all your pictures to be with a loser do you?

Dear 14 year old me,
Delcinea will be a person you can always count on, always go to for anything, she will come running if you ever, EVER need her... she is such a true friend, your best friend.

Dear 14 year old me,
if you meet a boy who you know is not treating you right, ditch him right away, dont waste time on him... You will find out that he is a mean boy in the first month, dont make the mistake of thinking its love, dont make the mistake of staying with him... listen to your friends and family... he will isolate you, he will put you down, he will make you feel worthless, ugly, and fat...he is a mean mean boy. after all the love of your life  is waiting...

Dear 14 year old me,
When you get accepted into ryerson, you will be so excited, you will move to Toronto and you will make new friends. Try hard, please? Go to class, read everything you are suppose to, make friends in your classes, and study with them in the library... you will thank yourself.

Dear 14 year old me,
NEVER get a credit card... you should know yourself, and you should know you are terrible with money... you will find out quickly that a credit card is not free money, and it has to be paid back eventually.. try to avoid it, you dont need Mr sub, and you dont need clothes... you have sooo many! AND you certainly dont need to go drinking... dont be foolish, think ahead.

Dear 14 year old me,
Look at yourself and the mirror and realize that just because you are not a size zero, you are still beautiful... dont let anyone tell you otherwise... because trust me, they will try.

Dear 14 year old me,
When your family asks you to go to the beach with them, canoeing with them, to dinner with them, or anything... say yes... you will really really regret it... you dont want to miss out on those things.

Dear 14 year old me,
Pay attention to the beautiful little things, laughing with your family over a silly little joke, your mothers smile while she shows you her beautiful gardens, your adorable dog racing around the yard, dancing with your dad in the kitchen while doing the dishes, hugs from your brother sean, and all the ways your other brother will show you how much he cares.

Dear 14 year old me,
no regrets ok?

Love Always SmartyPants xo