Panicking

Good morning...
Woke up having a panic attack because I am scared I won't get my G license in time... I took the test once already and failed and now I only have until February 22nd to pass and I am worried.... Not to mention the fact that it is $75.00 each time and I don't currently have a job... I dreamt about it all night last night and woke up panicking because I dot want to go back to a g1 license...
Anyway that's all
Oh wait! Also HAPPY LAST DAY OF 2012!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love you guys

Blithering Idiot

 Hello lovelies!

I just wanted to say that I LOVE my family so much! My grandparents, parents and brothers took me out for breakfast this morning and it was so much fun! I spent almost the whole day with them!!! Also I want to mention Taylor because I am thinking about him right now and how amazing he is... Some people are not being very nice to me right now and he has my back 100%... I love that guy ;) So i bought him a Cherry Coke! lol I know... i am so thoughtful and generous! :P

Also I am thinking about the fact that I miss Sam (my dog)

Also...I am excited for New Years Eve as i am going to be spending it with Taylor, Delcinea, Zach, Eliesha, and Jon... and others who happen to be at the party! (Zach is Delcineas boyfriend and Jon is Eliesha's boyfriend!) It is also Jons birthday on New Years Eve so Happy Birthday!!!! :P I wanted to go to Toronto with Taylor for New Years Eve, as Taylor and I have done in the last 2 years... buts its a little expensive... and as i am jobless until further notice... we decided it would be better to stay closer to home! I will miss going to The Unicorn Pub though!!! My favorite pub in the world!!!

Also... i am tired of cleaning!!! This house just doesn't want to be clean... i can tell... Because every time i clean it still looks as messy as it did in the first place and its driving me bananas! I just want to hire a cleaning person for ONE DAY but that would be dumb because they wouldn't know where to put anything...

Okay so I am fully aware that no one really reads this, and thats okay with me... because I want to keep a record of my life... I want to be able to read my own story. So i will try and keep blogging... I'm doing good in the last few days anyway!

OK hopefully talk to you either later today or tomorrow... (THE LAST DAY OF 2012!!!)

Love Always SmartyPants xo

[I was bored yesterday :P But it turned out pretty cool! 4 different photos from different days in the last 3 months and edited on my iPhone :)]

What a Mess

It is ridiculously messy in this house but I have no desire to clean it... Why can't It just clean itself??? I have managed to do nothing with my day so far which annoys me like crazy... Well I played Sims for a bit so I did some things with a virtual persons life... Lame... I don't think I have mentioned this yet but Taylor and I have moved in together officially now and we have moved to a new city which is nice!!!! We really like our house!!! Things are going well!!! Also we got a cat and her name is boots!!!! I also got a new job though I am now laid off for a bit... Lots off free time but no money .... Anyway got to go love you!

Chaos

What do you do when your life becomes chaos? When everything around you is spinning out of control and the only thing you know if that things were fine yesterday? How to you get everyone to see your point of view when your voice is too quiet for anyone to hear? Why is it that every time you try to speak up, someone always tries to use what you say against you? Why do families become distant? Why do people you hardly know judge you? Can things ever be the same after people use hurtful words? How do you forgive? Why cant you forget? How does a family member become an acquaintance? How do friends become enemies? How does trust get broken? When will the chaos subside? When will the Chaos subside? When will the Chaos subside?


Love Always

SmartyPants xo