Paths

I was walking through life, and had tripped on some pebbles along the way. I had stubbed my toe on a boulder and i got chased by a bird. After a while my shoes wore out and i had to walk barefoot. I stepped on many thistles, and twigs and rocks. But eventually my feet got tougher, and those thistles and twigs and rocks didnt seem to hurt as much anymore.

I was walking through life and i came across a baby turtle, and i helped him find his way to the water. The water was so blue and beautiful and tempting, i had to have a drink. But that blue and beautiful water wasn't what it seemed. I was sick for weeks. Eventually i got better and continued my walk. Though i noticed that i was very hungry for something. So i sat down on the grass and had a picnic.

I was walking through life and a stranger came up to me and made small talk. He walked with me for a bit. Although not long after he arrived, he turned around and went back the other way. It was nice to have some company for a while.

I was walking through life and i came to a fork in the road. I couldn't decide which road to take, i couldn't decide which way to go. I sat down on the grass and allowed myself to just be silent and think. I thought of positives and negatives of each of the roads, but i still couldn't come to a decision. So i thought some more, i thought of all those pebbles i had tripped over, and i thought of all the thistles i had stepped upon. And then i thought of that stranger who had turned around. Either of these roads would be better then turning back, after all i had come all this way.

I was walking through life and i realised, no matter which path i decide on, at least i am moving forward. no matter what there will be pebbles, and thistles and mean birds that chase you and lost baby turtles and strangers that cant bare walking as far as I.

So i was walking through life and i took a path. It doesnt really matter which one it was.

by: SmartyPants

Love Always
SmartyPants xo

Ch Ch Ch Changes... Going to Face The Change

Hey readers, im writing right now because i have nothing better to do right now, as it is 1:36 am and i cant sleep... also i have a lot of thoughts going though my head... with the main thought being about the changes that relationships go through...
I have found myself just now stumbling page after page through pointless relationship advice, and relationship stories, and yadda yadda yadda... and i really havent found anything that is helpful, or really that is of interest either... well except this... Website from Stumbleupon
Anyway, recently i have started to come to terms with the fact that the "Honeymoon stage" of my relationship may very well be over... I was having a rather difficult time dealing with this as... The Honeymoon stage is a pretty exciting one... the reason i believe the stage is over is because it seems that instead of wanting to be around each other 24/7, we are more willing to spend time with friends, family, or whoever. Mind you we still spend a fair amount of time with one another, it still isnt the same as it once was.
But i discussed this with my parents today and they both agreed that this was a very positive thing... they said that -in their opinion- if a couple remains in the "honeymoon stage" the relationship is not developing properly. Couples need to grow and that is a part of growing. The "honeymoon stage" is a hard one to maintain, and most couples that dont leave the stage, dont have a lasting relationship.... That was my parents opinion anyway....
And actually a few quotes from the link i posted above actually did give me a bit more to think about...

"both of us have room to grow, both of us HAVE to grow, if we want to hold each others love."


"Please dont ever give me to much of yourself, or take to much of me, in our togetherness, we still need our private places."

I think these two quotes say a lot actually, about my situation, about most relationships... changes happen, we just need to make sure that we continue to grow together. I think im to fearful or what every change may mean... I think im afraid of losing him, or afraid of the future because it is so very unclear... I think i just need to start letting myself live, and not think so much about it. I dont want to miss out on something because i was too busy thinking about my fears...
I love Taylor very very much, im just having a hard time with the change right now. I feel sometimes like he doesnt want to see me, or that im bugging him by texting him, or something... Sometimes my feelings get hurt, because he wants to hang out with a friend or he just doesnt feel like driving all the way to my town to see me... But i think i will get used to this soon... I think everything will be ok... I hope it will :)

Readers, as of today, i am going to stop thinking about what might happen, and focus on just living my life... I really really dont want to miss out on anything.

Goodnight loves of my life... Make sure you wish your mothers a Happy Mothers Day in the morning.. after all it was them that brought you into this world!

Love Always
SmartyPants xo