I Burnt My Hand On The Oven Of Love And Realised Things Couldnt Get Much Worse.

On The plus side, when things are at the worst they could possibly be, that means the only thing that can happen to you is improvments... Now im not saying things are absolutely terrible, but sometimes, normally when i am alone, with time to think, thats when the pain starts... thats when things get terrible... Otherwise, surrounding myself with friends and family and television and books, i could numb the feeling, or at the very least push it aside for a certain amount of time. Why cant feelings go away when the person that brought on the feeling in the first place no longer is a part of your life... wouldnt that be so much simpler? I think it would be. Wouldnt it be wonderful if when someone does something to you that is hurtful, and sad, if you could just forget them... in your anger and madness just forget they ever existed? But that wouldnt be good either would it... A few weeks ago i had a conversation with a good friend of mine... and lets call him Tyler... and he asked me if, given the option, in a purely fictional world obviously, if i was able to erase all memory of my past with a certain person.. would i? the good and the bad... everything... and i would be left with no ill feelings, no sadness, but then, i would also be left without the lessons that the past year and a half has taught me, and i would also be left without memory of the good times that i had with that person.. and there were A LOT of good times... So there you go i guess.. The emotions "sad" and "happy" go hand in hand kinda dont they?

Love Always

SmartyPants xo