Ch Ch Ch Changes... Going to Face The Change

Hey readers, im writing right now because i have nothing better to do right now, as it is 1:36 am and i cant sleep... also i have a lot of thoughts going though my head... with the main thought being about the changes that relationships go through...
I have found myself just now stumbling page after page through pointless relationship advice, and relationship stories, and yadda yadda yadda... and i really havent found anything that is helpful, or really that is of interest either... well except this... Website from Stumbleupon
Anyway, recently i have started to come to terms with the fact that the "Honeymoon stage" of my relationship may very well be over... I was having a rather difficult time dealing with this as... The Honeymoon stage is a pretty exciting one... the reason i believe the stage is over is because it seems that instead of wanting to be around each other 24/7, we are more willing to spend time with friends, family, or whoever. Mind you we still spend a fair amount of time with one another, it still isnt the same as it once was.
But i discussed this with my parents today and they both agreed that this was a very positive thing... they said that -in their opinion- if a couple remains in the "honeymoon stage" the relationship is not developing properly. Couples need to grow and that is a part of growing. The "honeymoon stage" is a hard one to maintain, and most couples that dont leave the stage, dont have a lasting relationship.... That was my parents opinion anyway....
And actually a few quotes from the link i posted above actually did give me a bit more to think about...

"both of us have room to grow, both of us HAVE to grow, if we want to hold each others love."


"Please dont ever give me to much of yourself, or take to much of me, in our togetherness, we still need our private places."

I think these two quotes say a lot actually, about my situation, about most relationships... changes happen, we just need to make sure that we continue to grow together. I think im to fearful or what every change may mean... I think im afraid of losing him, or afraid of the future because it is so very unclear... I think i just need to start letting myself live, and not think so much about it. I dont want to miss out on something because i was too busy thinking about my fears...
I love Taylor very very much, im just having a hard time with the change right now. I feel sometimes like he doesnt want to see me, or that im bugging him by texting him, or something... Sometimes my feelings get hurt, because he wants to hang out with a friend or he just doesnt feel like driving all the way to my town to see me... But i think i will get used to this soon... I think everything will be ok... I hope it will :)

Readers, as of today, i am going to stop thinking about what might happen, and focus on just living my life... I really really dont want to miss out on anything.

Goodnight loves of my life... Make sure you wish your mothers a Happy Mothers Day in the morning.. after all it was them that brought you into this world!

Love Always
SmartyPants xo