Have you ever been for something that everyone in your life was completely against? Did you feel so strongly about it that you felt every person around you was completely ignorant of the reality of the situation? Have you ever felt so lost and dazed and confused because your world has been suddenly turned upside down? Have you ever realized that you are a part of a lose lose situation? Have you ever felt physical pain over an emotion? Have you ached for someone you were no good for? Has a relationship ended that you knew shouldnt have? Can you look back on that said relationship and pin point the exact point where it went wrong? did you realize that it wasnt your fault at all though you feel entirely at blame? Have you ever cried yourself to sleep over someone who just doesnt seem to care? Have you ever counted memories to see if the good out weighs the bad? Have you found yourself wanting the past to return again? Have you ever listened to a song and felt like it was written specifically for your situation? And then cried? Have you ever felt like the world was against you? Have you ever found comfort in a pillow and a good book? Have you ever had to force yourself to laugh? Have you ever realized everything is going to be ok? Have you ever tried to find yourself again? Have you ever started to laugh again after a bad chapter in your life? Have you ever had a weak day, where all you should do was lay in bed and feel sorry for yourself? Have you ever thanked your friends and family for always being there for you? Will you thank them now? 
I lied to you readers, i promised that my "you know who" chapter of life was over... i became a smitten kitten for another but found little comfort in that sadly. Then i let myself care about "you know who" again, and i thought maybe things could get better... I was wrong... i let him back into my heart and that was a really stupid thing to do. You are witnessing a broken heart readers. You are witnessing a stupid girl who just needs to let go and move on. You are listening to the confessions of a drama queen. You have read about me for nearly 7 months. A ton has changed... but maybe not the right things. I cant promise you i will move on... but i sure as hell am going to try. I cant promise you that i can stop loving him... he will always have a place in my heart.Anyway readers, sorry about being sappy, or soppy or whatever. I was told you like reality... Well this is as real as it gets... My diary that i am sharing with you.
I Dont Believe You - P!nk
Love Always
SmartyPants xo
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