Missing: Voice

Dear Readers,
The words dont flow as easily as they used to. I dont feel i have as much to write about as i did when i was living in Toronto. Who knows, maybe i am just becoming more secretive with my life. Not as willing to share my life with the public...
Maybe life is to busy, maybe its to bland... who knows.
Anyway i should try to write more i know... Im SURE my life has something of interest in it.. i just have to find the words.
Have a lovely weekend!

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Love Always
SmartyPants xo

Sammich

Hey readers, if there are any of you left... i just wanted to say hi because it has been a while. So heres whats new... I got a second job, just in time for my first job (a temp job) is having me go down to 3 shifts a week... so phew! And the best part is the new job is in the city i live in rather then being in my old town (30ish mins away)... so its nice to not have to go so far. And to be honest, im pretty much that is ALL that is new...
Christmas is coming folks, and i have barely started shopping yet... ughh... i do enjoy shopping but it feels like i have so little time to shop for everyone... my list of gifts keeps growing and growing and growing.
I am thinking of becoming a big sister... ( as in big brothers big sisters) because i desire to make a difference in the world (or at least in one life) and i feel like becoming a big sister could be just that way to do that... but its something i will have to put more thought into, as its a huge commitment, and i need to make sure that i have time in my life and that i can handle the responsibility... not sure if im ready yet...
anyway that is all
im sorry im not being interesting! have a lovely lovely day!

Love Always
SmartyPants xo

Off To The City Once Again..Oh Boy...

Hello readers!
Long long time no talk, i have missed you dearly... but you know, life is busy and whatnot.
Anyway! A lot has happened since i last posted, such as moving to London. I have moved in with Delci and Taylor lives with our friend Dan downstairs! We are having a ton of fun living on our own so far!
Tonight was Mexican Wednesday, and Dee and i enjoyed some very delicious tacos. The boys were suppose to join us but they ate before dinner so they didnt join us... in conclusion... they suck!
I have been working full time hours at a minimum wage job, still in my hometown. Therefore i am paying far to much in gas to drive back and forth... however, i really enjoy my job, my coworkers are very very nice and i like my boss and the shift always go by really quick. But it is seriously not worth driving back and forth to get paid $10.25 an hour. So that is why i have begun the process of applying to a factory in my old town, and that pays well and i have a quite good chance of getting the job, so hopefully i will be working there soon! THAT will be totally worth driving back and forth because it pays really really well!!
Im happy right now readers, im not in school, and im drowning in debt, but i am so very very happy. I feel like no one and nothing can bring me down!!!
Oh ya! and Delci and i got chinchillas! They are sooooo cute, and their names are Jacques and Pierre! The frenchest chinchillas ever, however, in case you were wondering, they are not ACTUALLY able to speak french lol!
Anyway i am going to go and play red dead redemption now, OR maybe i will be smart and go to bed! either way... night night loves! xoxoxox 

Love Always
SmartyPants xo

Dear 14 year old me...

Dear 14 year old me,
You are so lucky, you have a family that loves you so much! Don't take advantage of them, dont take them for granted... In the next 6 years you should try not to fight with them... its hard i know, but try a little harder... please?

Dear 14 year old me,
You just entered high school... its going to be some of the best years of your life... dont rush through it... DO YOUR HOMEWORK! you will regret it if you dont... your life will be so much easier if you have good grades in high school as a foundation.

Dear 14 year old me,
Spend so much time with friends, especially those goofballs you hang out with near the bus stop after school... they will be true, lifelong friends.

Dear 14 year old me,
You know that boy Taylor who you are crushing on so much, the one you want so badly it hurts? Dont worry, after 5 years of a loving friendship, he will tell you he loves you on Delcineas front porch... and as you have loved him all along, everything will fall into place. be patient.

Dear 14 year old me,
Go to prom with friends, dont go with a boy... you dont want all your pictures to be with a loser do you?

Dear 14 year old me,
Delcinea will be a person you can always count on, always go to for anything, she will come running if you ever, EVER need her... she is such a true friend, your best friend.

Dear 14 year old me,
if you meet a boy who you know is not treating you right, ditch him right away, dont waste time on him... You will find out that he is a mean boy in the first month, dont make the mistake of thinking its love, dont make the mistake of staying with him... listen to your friends and family... he will isolate you, he will put you down, he will make you feel worthless, ugly, and fat...he is a mean mean boy. after all the love of your life  is waiting...

Dear 14 year old me,
When you get accepted into ryerson, you will be so excited, you will move to Toronto and you will make new friends. Try hard, please? Go to class, read everything you are suppose to, make friends in your classes, and study with them in the library... you will thank yourself.

Dear 14 year old me,
NEVER get a credit card... you should know yourself, and you should know you are terrible with money... you will find out quickly that a credit card is not free money, and it has to be paid back eventually.. try to avoid it, you dont need Mr sub, and you dont need clothes... you have sooo many! AND you certainly dont need to go drinking... dont be foolish, think ahead.

Dear 14 year old me,
Look at yourself and the mirror and realize that just because you are not a size zero, you are still beautiful... dont let anyone tell you otherwise... because trust me, they will try.

Dear 14 year old me,
When your family asks you to go to the beach with them, canoeing with them, to dinner with them, or anything... say yes... you will really really regret it... you dont want to miss out on those things.

Dear 14 year old me,
Pay attention to the beautiful little things, laughing with your family over a silly little joke, your mothers smile while she shows you her beautiful gardens, your adorable dog racing around the yard, dancing with your dad in the kitchen while doing the dishes, hugs from your brother sean, and all the ways your other brother will show you how much he cares.

Dear 14 year old me,
no regrets ok?

Love Always SmartyPants xo

Paths

I was walking through life, and had tripped on some pebbles along the way. I had stubbed my toe on a boulder and i got chased by a bird. After a while my shoes wore out and i had to walk barefoot. I stepped on many thistles, and twigs and rocks. But eventually my feet got tougher, and those thistles and twigs and rocks didnt seem to hurt as much anymore.

I was walking through life and i came across a baby turtle, and i helped him find his way to the water. The water was so blue and beautiful and tempting, i had to have a drink. But that blue and beautiful water wasn't what it seemed. I was sick for weeks. Eventually i got better and continued my walk. Though i noticed that i was very hungry for something. So i sat down on the grass and had a picnic.

I was walking through life and a stranger came up to me and made small talk. He walked with me for a bit. Although not long after he arrived, he turned around and went back the other way. It was nice to have some company for a while.

I was walking through life and i came to a fork in the road. I couldn't decide which road to take, i couldn't decide which way to go. I sat down on the grass and allowed myself to just be silent and think. I thought of positives and negatives of each of the roads, but i still couldn't come to a decision. So i thought some more, i thought of all those pebbles i had tripped over, and i thought of all the thistles i had stepped upon. And then i thought of that stranger who had turned around. Either of these roads would be better then turning back, after all i had come all this way.

I was walking through life and i realised, no matter which path i decide on, at least i am moving forward. no matter what there will be pebbles, and thistles and mean birds that chase you and lost baby turtles and strangers that cant bare walking as far as I.

So i was walking through life and i took a path. It doesnt really matter which one it was.

by: SmartyPants

Love Always
SmartyPants xo

Ch Ch Ch Changes... Going to Face The Change

Hey readers, im writing right now because i have nothing better to do right now, as it is 1:36 am and i cant sleep... also i have a lot of thoughts going though my head... with the main thought being about the changes that relationships go through...
I have found myself just now stumbling page after page through pointless relationship advice, and relationship stories, and yadda yadda yadda... and i really havent found anything that is helpful, or really that is of interest either... well except this... Website from Stumbleupon
Anyway, recently i have started to come to terms with the fact that the "Honeymoon stage" of my relationship may very well be over... I was having a rather difficult time dealing with this as... The Honeymoon stage is a pretty exciting one... the reason i believe the stage is over is because it seems that instead of wanting to be around each other 24/7, we are more willing to spend time with friends, family, or whoever. Mind you we still spend a fair amount of time with one another, it still isnt the same as it once was.
But i discussed this with my parents today and they both agreed that this was a very positive thing... they said that -in their opinion- if a couple remains in the "honeymoon stage" the relationship is not developing properly. Couples need to grow and that is a part of growing. The "honeymoon stage" is a hard one to maintain, and most couples that dont leave the stage, dont have a lasting relationship.... That was my parents opinion anyway....
And actually a few quotes from the link i posted above actually did give me a bit more to think about...

"both of us have room to grow, both of us HAVE to grow, if we want to hold each others love."


"Please dont ever give me to much of yourself, or take to much of me, in our togetherness, we still need our private places."

I think these two quotes say a lot actually, about my situation, about most relationships... changes happen, we just need to make sure that we continue to grow together. I think im to fearful or what every change may mean... I think im afraid of losing him, or afraid of the future because it is so very unclear... I think i just need to start letting myself live, and not think so much about it. I dont want to miss out on something because i was too busy thinking about my fears...
I love Taylor very very much, im just having a hard time with the change right now. I feel sometimes like he doesnt want to see me, or that im bugging him by texting him, or something... Sometimes my feelings get hurt, because he wants to hang out with a friend or he just doesnt feel like driving all the way to my town to see me... But i think i will get used to this soon... I think everything will be ok... I hope it will :)

Readers, as of today, i am going to stop thinking about what might happen, and focus on just living my life... I really really dont want to miss out on anything.

Goodnight loves of my life... Make sure you wish your mothers a Happy Mothers Day in the morning.. after all it was them that brought you into this world!

Love Always
SmartyPants xo

Bloggity Bloggity Blog Bloggg BLOG!

Hey everyone! how is it hangin today? wait, dont answer that... :D
anyway to be honest i really dont have alot to say, i am just typing because i havent said anything in a fair bit... probably since early feb but maybe since even before that... anyhoo, i guess the point it that i have been neglecting my fans... errr... fan... err whatever :) it is never nice to neglect people and i will tell you why...

hmmmm. i tried to google reasons why and the only thing i came up with was "should i neuter my dog?" which is not at all a similar search but hey, we shall find out if you should neuter your dog... hold on one jolly minute... PLEASE.

it seems the answer is yes, neuter your dog so he doesnt get all humpy on peoples legs and also so that he doesnt get a girl dog preggo... which i dont really understand because puppies are so gosh darn cute! dontcha thunk? :)

wow am i ever just going on and on about nothing today eh? its because i dont have much to say...
I could tell you about my day yesterday? because it was quite a nice day... t.w and i watched 4 movies... "love and other drugs" "morning glory" "crash" and "127 hours" my favs out of all of those was crash and also morning glory, as they were both pretty good, and i didnt think 127 hours was as good as it could of and should of been... ya know? also my adorable t.w brought me to a park with a big lake-ish thing and brought bread and we fed the ducks and some ate out of our hands! it was really cool... until the swan came and tried to scare all of us...

anyhoo im off, have a swell night and keep your knickers twist free :)

Love Always
SmartyPants xo

Never Judge a Fish by Its Ability to Climb a Tree

Hello beauts,
Is Smarty Pants here, bringing you the latest and greatest news from my life! Which is not that exciting, but is it ever?
Anyway, yesterday was Valentines Day, a day filled with lurrrveee, mushiness, and nauseating words spoken from one lover to another :P And i quite enjoyed it :P
I spent the evening with my boyfriend t.w. and we had quite a smashing time if you ask me!
We cooked dinner together and then we went to the movies and saw Gnomeo and Juiliet, and then we had strawberries and chocolate! yumm! It was nice :)
But sadly that day had to end and now i am back to my boring old life, in my boring old town, working at my boring old job! UGH! i need something (ANYTHING) exciting to happen! or i just might flip my lid!
Also, i miss my Delcin today, because she is in london and i dont have my own car and she hasnt been home in a while, so i havent seen her in a while and all this adds up to me missing her! so ya! lol
GODDDD I AM SO BORED RIGHT NOW! There is litterally nothing to do! and i feel ashamed of myself because after i was done work today i played sims 3 nightlife for like 5 hours, how pathetic and boring and lame! I am quite disappointed in my own general direction!
So anyway im pretty sure i told you i was bored like a million times in this post, so ill go before i ramble about even more...
ohh ya and one more thing, the title of this has nothing to do with the post but its still good advice for life...

Love Always
SmartyPants xo

Nightime Boredom

Good Evening readers,
how are you all on this fine fine night?
Im good -thanks for asking ;)
So i just watched the first episode of the second season of my life as liz and let me tell you... it was awesome!!!!!
You should remember me talking about this show in the past on here... i believe i was going on about Bryson lol, a character in the show! but anyway, i am very much looking forward to the rest of the season!!!!!!!!!!!!
So im sure you are all curious as to what is going on in the life of ms. SmartyPants!!! (arent you?) WELL i shall tell you!
Not a whole lot!
I am working at my same crap job, that i should stop complaining about because at least i have a job!!! and other then that i mostly hang out with my awesome boyfriend, my best friend, or play sims 3 (dont mock me- that is what my life is like right now) I need an adventure readers, and im ready for winter to go away now! Its pretty but its so cold i keep just hiding in the house in my warm bed (thanks to the heating blanket that some dork gave me-hehe)... But i want the snow to melt and the spring and summer to come, and then i want to do something cool like go on a road trip out west, or just go camping and spend a week lounging at the beach!
I want this summer to be more exciting then the last - even though last summer was pretty damn awesome!
I want lots of pictures and stories and memories!
Anyway readers, i suppose more on that later!
Goodnight!

Love Always
SmartyPants xo

Love Letters

Dear Readers,
I have been reading love letters by famous women and men today, they are very old,  well written, romantic and simply beautiful. So i have decided i would post one of them on here... because it is just so cute!!!! :D

If only I were a clever woman, I could describe to you my gorgeous bird, how you unite in yourself the beauties of form, plumage, and song!


I would tell you that you are the greatest marvel of all ages, and I should only be speaking the simple truth. But to put all this into suitable words, my superb one, I should require a voice far more harmonious than that which is bestowed upon my species –


I will not tell you to what degree you are dazzling and to the birds of sweet song who, as you know, are none the less beautiful and appreciative.


I love you, I love you. My Victor; I can not reiterate it too often; I can never express it as much as I feel it.


I recognise you in all the beauty that surrounds me in form, in colour, in perfume, in harmonious sound: all of these mean you to me. You are superior to all. I see and admire - you are all!


You are not only the solar spectrum with the seven luminous colours, but the sun himself, that illumines, warms, and revivifies! This is what you are, and I am the lowly woman that adores you.'

Isnt it beautiful readers? I just thought i would share.
I love you all very very much... but you know that right?
xoxoxo

Love Always
SmartyPants xo

Flutie Patootie... Nom Nom Nom

HEYYY readers!
Its your very own and awesome (and conceited) SmartyPants here to bring you news from my life!!!
THIS JUST IN: i have purchased a flute and will be taking flute lessons! (i know you are super excited for me right? RIGHT??) I am in a such a good mood that not even the disgusting coffee that i made is going to bring me down this morning!!! lol
My flutie is a selmer (thats the company that made her..).... and i still have to name her, so stay tuned for that. If anyone has any suggestions, let moi know... otay? OTAY!
Anywayyyy, also in my life, i have started apprenticing under my lovely boyfriend (ooo that sounded dirty..lmao) learning video games, specifically team fortress... and it is rather fun if i do say so myself! But i dont think i am very good... but i DO enjoy being the NOM NOM NOM sandwich guy, who is apparently named Heavy, but i refuse to call him that... anyway i quite enjoy that game, except not getting killed... but i feel very very proud of myself when i kill someone else!!! lol
So im pretty sure that is all that is really going on in my life right now... Tonight Taylor and i are going to hang out with our dear friend Colin! which should be loads of fun and whatnot!
hearts and hugs and kisses friends

Love Always
SmartyPants xo

You Aint Seen Nothing Yet...

OKKK so im quite aware that i just posted something on here readers... but still... i have decided to write more because i wanted to tell you guys about my 2011 so far... (it has been 2011 for 11 days!) So anyway, things have been going really really well!!!! i have been spending tons of time with my amazing boyfriend, my best friend, and working alot so i have money!!! lol so life is good anyway! Yesterday Taylor and i went on a date to dinner and a movie and it was really really fun, and happy!! We went to Jack Astors for din din and then to chapters for a bit of a sit in bean bag chairs (lol) and then to the movie "The Kings Speech," Which was soooo good!!!!!!! one sec i will post the trailer for the movie on here... brb

there you go!
anyway it was a very very good movie, and it has made me very interested in the royal families history!!! so you should all go and watch this movie... or you fail me!
HUM DEE DUM... what else? RIGHT! i have not yet told you my new years resolutions yet! ok here they are!!

-stop eating fast food

-learn a new instrument

-make more videos for youtube

-be a nicer person towards everyone

-stop sucking :P

so that is all pretty much guys!
i really dont have much else to say... so ill ttyl :D

Love Always
SmartyPants xo

:D

I LOVE TAYLOR WILLIAMS

just thought i should share! 

Love Always
SmartyPants xo

Good Night

Hey readers...

didnt i say i wasnt going to cry over boys any more?

Love Always
SmartyPants xo

Happy 2011

Dear Readers,
Happy Belated New Year! I hope you all had a wonderful new years eve and a great new years day! i certainly did :)
This year for NYE my boyfriend, Taylor, and i drove to Toronto after i was done work, to ring in the new year with some good conversation, and a lot of laughs at my favorite pub, The Unicorn, on Eglington and Yonge! It was a blast readers! let me tell you!
We got to the pub around 9:15 which is lucky because after 9:30 no one was allowed to get in without having reserved a spot in advance. Anyway when we got inside we noticed that there were no tables, but the really nice door man/ bouncerish guy made us a table! Which was SUPER nice!! (But the staff is always SO friendly there!)
Anyway so we were talking and having fun and drinking some yummy beer and we ate some dinner, and then before we knew it, it was 10 minutes to midnight and the pub was completely crowded! we could barely move! We kinda got mistaken for people with reservations, so we got free champagne too! YESS! The clock striked midnight and i got my new years kiss! It was lovely :)
We decided at around 12:30 that it was about time to leave the pub and head downtown because we heard there was a lot going on... so we paid our bill and were on our way...
On the way to the subway (slightly intoxicated) we said “Happy New Year!” to many people walking bye! Everyone was in such a chipper mood!!!  Then at the subway an older lady smiled at me and i said “Happy New Year,” to her and she said it back to me. Then we started to have a conversation, and i asked if she was from Toronto, and she told me that she was born and raised, and that she had also lived all over the world because her husband (of 66 years) was in the air force. You could tell that after so long together, they were still very very much in love... which was quite adorable and inspiring if you ask me. Then she whispered in my ear “i wish the two of you 66 years of happiness, if you can stand it.” and gave me a hug... which was sooo sweet. and made me very very happy...
Then when we got onto the subway, a guy in his early 20’s was on his way home from the bar, and he had a bag filled with sex toys and porn trivia... and next thing you know, a whole bunch of people on the subway were all playing trivia with us... lol.. it was so funny... and i guess we were a little too intoxicated, and having a little too much fun because next thing you know, we were back at the stop we started at... we had made the full subway loop, forgetting entirely about our stop.. but oh well... it was soooo fun!!
when we finally made it downtown i showed taylor the ryerson campus, dundas square, flow 93.5 and my old apartment. Then we went up the roof and chilled there for a bit. A very romantic night indeed :)
Anyway readers, that is my whole NYE story for you...
i hope yours was a good as mine was!

happy 2011! (weird eh?)

xox

Love Always
SmartyPants xo

p.s. Readers, i am having very odd dreams lately... they have been going on for the past 2 weeks actually... and i am aware this has nothing to do with the above post but i just wanted to share... So i have had 2 different types of dreams that i can remember vividly, and they are happening every single night! its getting annoying, and its kinda freaking me out because i feel like my subconscious is trying to tell me something...
The first dream is about me either being pregnant, or having a baby, and it being a strange looking baby, or a messed up pregnancy in some way... which is so weird.
The second is that Taylor is cheating on me, with either his ex girlfriend or this one girl that i will leave nameless..
I just want these dreams to go away readers, because every morning i wake up feeling like crap because of them. Its like nightmares... i dont know what they mean.. that is all though... maybe someone can explain what they mean to me?
 

And Then The Grinch Tried to Steal Christmas... But failed

Well well well readers, there is a grinch among us... someone who doesnt smile or laugh, and who is only interested in the topic of conversation when it is directed at her. She snaps the minute the room grows to loud and acts fake in every situation. Oh grinchy... Well you miserable cuss, you will not ruin christmas... nah... Christmas has not been stolen by you... Christmas came this year...
Anyway Merry xmas again readers... i love you all to pieces... hope SANTA was good to you! As for me i did very very well! Wanna know what i got?
A kajillion clothes!!! and like lots of jeans which i needed! yay!
I got this origami set which is cool,
a bunch of jane auston books!
shoes and pjs and slippers
candyy!
and er, lots of other things, but anyway
got to go have din din now
chip chip cheerio

Love Always
SmartyPants xo

Happy Christmas 2010

Dear readers,
I am thankful for so much in my life, i am thankful that i have a roof over my head and that i will get to have a feast tomorrow with my loving family... I am thankful for the friends that surround me, and for the love that i get showered with every day of my life. Im grateful that i have two best friends that are always there to listen to me, and give me advice, or there just to share a laugh with. Actually i am thankful for everyone in my life for being able to enjoy a good laugh with me. I am thankful for the religious group that i am a part of for bringing music back into my life and helping me reconnect with my faith. I am so lucky for having this life.
I was thinking about that the other day actually... how perfect my life is.. because it almost is perfect... I am just so lucky readers.
Here i sit, on what was christmas eve, but as hours passed has now turned into christmas day, and i have my whole family down the hall from me, and i have a day filled with family and friends and love to look forward to.. i am the most fortunate girl in the world.
Anyway readers, Happy Christmas 2010... I hope you all have a wonderful day!

Love Always
Falalalala lala lala
SmartyPants xo

Let It Snow

Good Evening Lovlies!
Just so all you fantastic readers know... Coming up on the 13th is the one year anniversary of this blog! WOOT! thats quite a long time that i have been rambling on!! But we can talk about that on the actual anniversary! lol
Alsooo Its only 22 days until christmas and only 59 days until my 20th birthday! holy smokers!
So anyway right now im sitting on my butt and watching tv... and starving! OOO the office... im going to watch that... sorry A.D.D... and so i will probably go and find something to eat soon!!!! I have the strong craving for subway buttttttt i dont wanna spend money! so be proud of me because normally i wouldnt think twice about spending money and im getting better about it!!!
Yay meee!!
Anyway i really dont have much to talk about lately... life has been fairly uneventful sadly... and so now i shall go keep a look out for a cap containing my sick little brother that i couldnt drive to pick up from school because i failed at learning how to drive a standard vehicle.. ugh im such a dumby
lol
So have a lovely day people!!

Love Always
SmartyPants xo

The Second Mouse Gets The Cheese

Good afternoon most fantastic readers!!!!
Today is a cloudy bore of a day but ahhh well...
I have spent it having a super duper fun time cleaning the house.. gahh
Now my mum has gone to town and therefore i am not being watched and THEREFORE i am no longer cleaning! muah hahahaha :D
And now she is probably going to read this and be cheesed at moi but it is what it is!!!
Anyway i suppose i dont have a lot to say right now, because i am sorta watching a movie and trying to blog at zee same time, and so my mind is occupied... i will write more later i hope, because i havent blogged in a long long time!!!!
anyway i quite think you guys are swell!

Love Always
SmartyPants xo

Whosits and Whatsits

Good evening wonderful wonderful people!
I have some super duper exciting news for you!!!!
I have a video blog on youtube!!! but im also going to put it on here! because i know you would want me to do so!!!
Make sure you watch it! and make sure you leave a comment! because that is the polite thing to do :P
I will also put my video "musical randomness" on here because i just figured out how to put videos on here thanks to my fan-freakin-tastic boyfriend!!
Also dont worry... i am still going to blog on here... otay? OTAY!


You are welcome for putting these on here... because i know you will enjoy them muchly!!!!
So you guys probably want to know whats been happening in the life of smartypants lately eh? well well well... smarty pants has been busy working and erm... not going to school... but we can discuss that later... lol
I have also started going to church and i am starting to find my faith again... even if i dont believe in EVERYTHING the church teaches... for an example... the church (as i am catholic) is against gay marriage, but i dont have a problem with it... i think that anyone in love should be allowed to be joined my marriage. I am also singing at the church..... and i am quite enjoying the music that we play because it is modern music... if you want to get the gist of what we sing, youtube some Chris Tomlin.
Anyway i dont really know what else to say..... except Delci has made me put a SOMETHING FOR DELCI!!!!!!!!!!!
So i suppose here it goes:

Love Always
SmartyPants xo